The day I Ended my exam was also the last day I enjoyed and relaxed.
Been waking up at 5:15am and reaching home around 7pm.
Learning to do accounting, by learning as I work..no that easy after all.
taking up lot of memory space in my brain.
And I am really really tired.

Well..its been two weeks I think since I last went to Church.
With all the rushing here and there, i realise I am also slowly moving away, distancing myself away for God.

Many things happened. Its affected my parents and me, the feeling of being back stabbed. And its someone close to us. Its sad to see how people changed due to greed. Its quite saddening...like after seeing and hearing so much, you just feel that no matter how forgiving and helpful you are, you are going to suffer, taken advantage of. And its by going the other directions that you will feel safe and comfortable with yourself, to survive. Knowing how the person is, its hard for me to start talking to him, I dun even want to listen to him. I just despised him for what he had done.He dun feel guilty, still thinking that his plans worked well and we are kept in the dark.

Nothing can hide the truth. It will be revealed no matter how hard you try. As my unhappiness begin to grow into hatred, God spoke.

Reader's Digest June 2008
A Healing Fire
Its about a man in Cambodia..As a boy, he saw his family being forced into slavery and murdered along with others in a village. 33 of them and He was the only survivor and witnessed everything. He vowed to kill those murderous, even joined the police and try to use that power..He failed and left Cambodia. He became a Christian and settled down but yet in his heart, he knew that He was still living in darkness. God provided him a chance to step out of it. He Received a letter from World Vision asking him to teach in Cambodia. He went back, met the man who killed his family.

"Reconciliation can never take place if forgiveness is not granted first."

"If you have a wound in your leg, you remove the plaster and cleanse the wound. Its stings, but healing is taking place. Cleansing the wound is necessary for healing process."

He went back to deliver the message of forgiveness to the man who killed his father. It was extremely painful for him but it brought healing.


Well...it was a short story. But taught me a lot. Christ endured the pain so that there is forgiveness and healing for us. I got to admit that after what happened in my family, hatred and darkness entered into my life. It is painful to forgive him. Like why should I be so stupid to forgive someone who keep repeating his mistake over and over again, even tho chances are given to him. How do I forgive someone who dun even admit his mistake and become even worst.

Like how the story describe it...it is really painful to forgive. Its really the first time I find it so hard to forgive someone. Now I know why I should be grateful that God did that for me. I should be thankful that I am still here alive and bless while many others around the world are suffering. God blessed us with forgiveness and healing while He suffered, we can do the same for others too.

I hope healing will take place soon....






ahquan-------------with a thankful heart, I forgive

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